Lock The Doors

When I hear about the horrible things that happen outside it makes me want to stay inside. Where it is safe, but every day I run out the door ready to find out what's new in the world. Outside is so intoxicating every bit of outdoors pulls me in and i am surrounded by chirping birds, squirrels running up trees and dropping acorns on me. Yet when you hear about the horrible things outside it sometimes paints everything beautiful in black. Like parents killing their babies, it hurts everyone yet it shows that some of the people who are supposed to look out for you the most will stab you in the back. It shows how crazy the entire world is. But when you meet someone with a good heart it brings back color to the world. Friends add the rainbow to my world. My friends show me not to "Lock The Doors" -Get Scared

Serpentine

Your smile shows the snake you really are
Fangs sharp and ready to strike
You hide who you really are like the big bad wolf!
When children see who you really are they scream in terror and run for their lives.
Your attitude is slippery and slimmy
Where ever you go you leave behind scales of those who you have ate
When you look at the scales you can see the faces of those who are no longer with us
You only get happiness out of hurting others
Those dark beady eyes show everyone the darkness within you
Your words always come out with a hiss behind them
Every move you make gives off a rattling battle cry
You will always be "Serpentine" - Disturbed

Hold Me

The one think I want the most from you I can't have. I don't want flowers or jewelry I want you. I want you to be with me when we watch a movie. I want to laugh with me. Is that to much to ask? Because not being able to do it sucks. It sucks not being able to watch you laugh at my jokes in real life. I'm glad that we have skype that's nice but I want more than that. I know that I am being selfish. And I know if I save enough I will get to see you this summer. Which is something to look forward to. Only my excuse to everyone is to go to a anime convention when really it's mainly because of you. But i cant wait until I can see you and when you can "Hold Me" -Delta Heavy

Blue

So lately I have been asked if I'm going to blog. Well the answer is yes! :D I have only been slowed down until after Christmas because my laptop has the blue screen of death. Which is really sad because I have a ton of stuff on that laptop.... But life moves on. I am going to get a laptop for Christmas I just have to wait until then. That's only 25 Days away, I can do it! Plus this time gives me time to think of songs so I can do some more new and ex citing posts. Because to be honest this is really hard to write with my tablet, yes it comes with a keyboard but the keyboard is the oddest thing ever.  So until then my laptops "Blue"- Eiffel 65

Now Let Them Tremble

Why is it that people get brave over the computer? They can easily tell a person that they like them and even bully someone? Do they think that it is ok since your not saying anything to a person to their face? To me those people are some of the weakest people on the planet. Because not only is it not cool to bully someone but it is low to do it on the computer. Because speaking from experience it makes me pity them. I know that they don't have enough courage to say something to my face because they are afraid of what I would do. So this is for all of the people who have ever been bullied weather it was online or in person. "Now Let Them Tremble" - All That Remains

Forever in Your Hands

When we don't talk I can't get my mind off you. But when we do talk all's I can think about is you. You wont stop running through my mind. You say you love me one day, then the next we are just best friends. We understand why eachother does the things that we do. We understand and don't judge each other. We both love each other yet I am no longer holding back because of the girl rules. I threw that handbook out the window because I would rather be happy in your arms than in the care of a friend who doesn't really like me. You show me the good parts of me, while I help bring out the best in you . We fit together like two puzzle peices. You showed me how to give my heart to someone without holding back in fear of getting hurt. I have brought happiness and sunshine back to you. Your the drums to my music and the pulse to my heart beat.Without you I wouldn't make since.  I will be "Forever in Your Hands" -All That Remains

The Drug On Me Is You (Conclusion)

My Writers Workshop class is no longer going to blog for class credit any  more. :/ But don't worry I'm not going to stop blogging. This last 2 weeks have brought me alot closer to music. I was already close but something about this experience has me addicted to writing like this.

I have learned that it's not bad to let things in. Before this blog I never really  let anything in but now im not afraid. It has showed me not to be embarresed of my work. I used to be afraid to let people see my "real" work. That is what I wanted to accomplish this entire blog and I have.

But with creating this blog i got addicted. I got addicted to putting my real life problems with songs in writing. Something about putting those things together somehow takes a weight of my chest. It is also nice not holding everything in, normally I hold things in until I explode but now I don't feel like I have to do that any longer. And dont't worry I still plan on blogging as much as I already do because "The Drug On Me Is You" - Falling In Reverse

Honey Bee

You some how said everything you needed to last night to make me no longer mad at you. You told her that you cared about me! That was a break through. Then today when I told you something that had me to tears you just calmed me down and told me you loved me no matter what. You told me that we would get through it together. Most people would be repulsed but you still see me for me. This is the person I loved and missed. I never heard you so happy as you were earlier. Yet you comforted me in a way that just came naturally. You didn't have to think about what to say. You said it and it came out smooth and meaningful. Every couple has their ruff weeks and that was ours. But I'm glad to know that no matter what I will always be your "Honey Bee" -Blake Shelton

I Like It Like That

I love the windows down in the car as I go a little to fast with my music a little to loud.

I like singing with my friends as loud as we can and a little out of pitch.

I love those inside jokes that you can't help but to have with your best friends.

I love dancing to random music in the shower

Epic Fail on Her Shirt... :/

I love laughing and making people laugh. (I try to make one person laugh a day)

I love having my stereo on so loud at home where you feel the bass of the song thoughout my house

I love sitting at a stop light and messing with the the drivers next to me

I love being at concerts and getting lost in the crowd

I love the feeling of music being way to loud that you feel it pounding throughout your body

I love how your hearing is partially gone after a concert so you have to scream to everyone and because of that you loose your voice

"I Like It Like That" -Hot Chelle Rae

Just A Kiss

Two lips press together in a sign of affection. Or two people who like to kiss. Sometimes when you kiss a person fireworks go off but other times you are like really eeww get off me. Sometimes just being kissed in the right way can mean getting into a nice relationship. But lets admit it you really don't wanna be stuck with someone who can't kiss you in ways that you like. But when you kiss me I get lost in my head. There is no thinking just emotions flying around. Every emotion is of bliss. Happiness. I can feel the corners of your mouth slide up into a smile as you kiss me. I can't help but to chuckle which gets us to laughing. Laughing and kissing at the same time is a ton of fun I must add. :D Yet most people would be offended if I giggled while we were kissing but you just saw it as it was and laughed to. I like how you know exactly what I meant. The best kind of kiss is definatly one were you have rain pouring down on you while you are being held in someones arms. But no kiss is "Just A Kiss" - Lady Antebellum

Comin Home (For Michael)

I walk down the gravel road my mind running at 100 miles per hour. I'm confused as I walk to no particular place. I am afraid that i lost everything that I once had. Yet walking down this gravel road it clears my head, it helps me think straight. I see things moving around me but nothing registers as important. Nothing matters in this moment in time but the fact that I realized where I was walking. Even when things get bad you have one place that you can go. No matter how much you are fighting with the ones that you love. Deep inside you know that they will love you unconditionally. That's why I'm tired of walking away from my problems and I am "Comin Home" - City and Colour

I Pray (For Sean)

I never get down on my knees with my hands together
But when I am with you, you bring out that person in me
You make me want to be something bigger than I really am
You make me want to be better than I really am
You make me realize what i really want in life and you guide me in that direction
You don't push me away and you don't pull me to you
You make my decisions my own
You let me mess up without telling me how to fix it
Now I sit on my knees and "I Pray" - Eye Empire

*PS. This is an epic fail I think.......

Live Like You Were Dying

This past two weeks have taught me to live every moment to the fullest and not let anything hold me back. If that means that you need to just jump and pray that it doesn't hurt when you fall then do it. Because in life you never know when you are going to run out of time. We wont ever know when our clock hits zero saying our time in this world is over. I don't want my clock to run out before I reach all of my goals. I also learned that you can never regret anything you say or do because you will never be able to go back in time and change it. But if you had the chance would you? Would you risk not knowing what you learned from that lesson? Would you risk changing your future that has been laid out for you? I know that you need to tell every person how much you care about them every chance that you get because you never know when it is going to be your last moment with them. I also learned that you need to smile to at least one person a day because your one smile could mean the world to them. I also know that I don't ever want to treat people bad because I don't want people to remember me that way at my funeral. Which wont be for a LONG LONG time I hope. So over the last few weeks with everything that has happened and everything that has been told to me that I'm not comfortable telling to anyone who can see my blog, I have learned that I need to "Live Like You Were Dying" -Tim McGraw

Scream Aim Fire

The battlefield is set up. Enemies are staring at each other through binoculars. Neither one is within shooting range. Young new soldiers cry and shake in the fear of their immediate future. Were they going to live past this moment and be able to go home or were they going to be another young fellow in a body bag? Nobody knows what they are fighting for in that moment they just know that they have to hide and pray to god that they pull the trigger on someone else before it is pulled on them. Anticipation grows as they here to tootle toot of the enemies trumpet and the loud thuds of the enemies boots. The younger soldiers start to aim their guns at the enemies just to see if they are in range yet. Then suddenly the first shot rings out over the battlefield. An older soldier falls to the ground with blood running down his face from his helmet. There is no more time to fear whats going to happen there is just enough time to "Scream Aim Fire" - Bullet for my Valentine

Situations

How do I constantly get myself suck between a rock and a hard place? If it's not that then guys are trying to use me. Do guys really only care about a piece of ass? WHY did I ask that I should know that answer. Yet you think I would learn my lesson the first time. But like many girls I keep doing it. Maybe one of these days i will learn my lesson. How do girls get them self into these "Situations" - Escape The Fate

Not Over You

You cry on my shoulder about her and how much you love her. You tell me that you are sad that she doesn't love you back like how you love her.. Every time another tear slides down your stained face it breaks my heart just that much more. When you cry over her I break inside I make sure not to show you or let you know that I am crying because I know it will start a fight that neither one of us wants to deal with at that moment. I have tried everything to help you get over her and to help me get over you. I have tried showing you that in some way she is happy now, and that i haven't seen her this happy in a long time. But that only hurts you more. I am in between a rock and a hard place on this one. I don't want you to cry for someone that loves you. Because the person that you are meant to be with will never hurt you like that. One day you will tell me that you are ok an that you are not hurt but I can hear it in your voice that you are lying. I hate that you feel like you have to lie to me about her but I guess that's how it has to be. But remember next time you cry on my shoulder about her I'm breaking inside because I'm "Not Over You" - Gavin Degraw

Pocket Full Of Sunshine

Yes I had to do a post about this song. No I don't love it but every time I see Easy A I can't help but to sing along to this song. And in most ways I agree with Olive (Emma Stone) that the song is a horrible song. The radio stations over played it for far to long but whenever I need to be comforted i know this song always makes me smile. No matter how cheesy it may be. It also makes me realize that there is always a bright side to every situation even if you can't see it at that moment there is still good coming out of it. While in one moment you can have your hear shattered on the ground even when I'm not there to pick up the puzzle pieces this song always will be.... Lets all get up listen to this horrible song sing it at the top of our lungs and never look back because it's the odd things that we do to music and in life that we will never forget. So here is to a"Pocket Full Of Sunshine" -Natasha Bedingfeild

Master of Puppets

I'm the puppet in your puppet show. You can throw me away and bring me crawling back to you in search for you to show me the way. I'm done crawling back to you on my hands and knees. If you cared about me in the ways that you said you did you would put me on the back burner. I'm tired of being your #2! I will never be someones number 2 again. I wanna be someones number one. Someone to care for me the way I need to be cared for the way I deserve to be cared for! You obviously only care about her. It's OK I got the hint but don't start a relationship with me if your not ready for one. Because I don't wanna waste my time on you if you don't care about me. I'm done I'm sorry I can't be your puppet any longer. I'm tired of you hurting me even if it's intentional or not, you still do it. I'm tired of going to go to bed with a tear streaked face because of you. So when your really ready for a relationship I won't be there for you! You lost me this week. I'm sorry I couldn't wait for you to be ready. Because I have other people who would obviously see me as number one. They would also never make me cry in the ways that you made me cry. You will no longer be my "Master of Puppets" -Metallica

Fade Away

What happened to the old you? The person that I would go to when I was younger and seeking advice? I don't know who you are any longer. Have you changed or have I just learned that you treated me wrong? I'm sorry that this is happening to you of all people. Why did this have to happen? Nobody chooses to act like this do they? You pick fights just to have them or say mean things just to say them. Nothing you say that is mean has any good intent to it. You are loosing people that love you dearly because of the things that you are doing and saying. Do you not realize that this is happening? If you do, do you even care? Please come back and be the old you again. Please don't "Fade Away". - Breaking Benjamin

Winter Wonderland

This morning when I woke up i was awoken by cold temperatures. Colder than it normally is in my house which is an odd think to happen since my house is always freezing. I proceeded to grumble and grudgingly get out of bed with my red and black comforter wrapped around me. I open the door to have my happy peppy cat Pudge meow happily at me while I head over to the thermostat. It was set on AC! In the middle of November with weather like we have had it should be set at heat but NO my mom has hot flashes so i get to freeze my little happy ass off. This is not what i think of when i think "Winter Wonderland" -Guy Lombardo and his Royal Canadians

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

So last night I had a girls night out. It was a blast Hayden, Brittnay, Lindsey and I all danced sang and rapped in Lindsey's car. We had some serious girl talk to that I don't think that I should share with strangers :D. So we all decided we wanted a sonic drink so we went to sonic the one that neither Brittnay or Hayden works at so we did not run into their coworkers. Well guess what! We ran into Hayden's crush lol! I saw him so I yelled "Hayden get down" while I shoved her head down so he did not see her. Because she is already in trouble for liking him and I knew that if Eric knew she was there she would never live it down. That became our joke for the rest of the night. The best part definitely had to be us all rapping to Pop Lock and Drop it, and Booty Work, lol. This comes to show that "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Cyndi Lauper"

Sorry

After the fight is always the hardest moment in a couples relationship. You both have hurt feelings, tears that where held in. Yet you have that distance between the two of you, it's hard to know that whatever you said while you had tear stains streaking your face. I wish that I could take back some of the things that I said to you last night but I know if I do then we will never have gotten this far. Both of you cry from the words the other person says yet some how you still remain close. Today we both said that we never wanted to do it again. It didn't split us up this time but will it split us up another time? You knew exactly what to say to make me cry. I know the right things to make you cry. Yet how can one person know how to hurt another so bad. I love and care about you to much to do that to you. So I just want you to know I'm "SORRY - Buckcherry"

Pain

Why do you put yourself through pain that you don't deserve? Why do you think that you deserve to be hurt? Why do you want me to tell things that will hurt you? Do you think I could hurt you the way she did? Do you not know how much I love you and that I could not hurt you? I don't tell you things that you don't need to know about her because i know that it puts you through unnecessary pain that you don't need or deserve. I did not ask questions because I knew you could get me to tell you about it and I can't put you through that much PAIN. We have come so far already and yet it seems like you just want to go back to how we where? Do you want us to be over? To no longer talk for us not to like each other? Because if you do you need to tell me now before I get any more hurt and shed any more tears over you! And definitely before you put me through any more "PAIN.- Three Days Grace"

Our Rebel Love Song

We are told it's a bad idea to continue to talk with each other. I'm told that your bad for me and i deserve better. You got your shit together and realized that you needed me because i understand you. We joke, laugh, and cry to each other, without being afraid of being seen as weak. When I was down on my knees crying you were the first person i called for comfort. You told me it was ok and that everything would get better you also told me that she was a stupid bitch. Yet those word cleared up my tears. You said you loved me the other night it made me realize that the feelings are mutual. Through thick and thin i was always trying to help you. At times we are both afraid of getting hurt but we get through it together. We wont listen to what people tell us because we are the two puzzle pieces that match perfectly. So this is our "Rebel Love Song" - Black Veil Brides

Introduction

In every Blog that i put up it will have some connection to a song. Each will end with a song title that has something to do with the blog. I live my life through music everyday. It says the simple things for me that i can't put together. When i write i get my inspiration from songs.

Not every songs will be happy, depending on the posts. Most every song will have something to do with the topic at hand or it will be what i was listening to. But on occasion i will put a random song on here just to surprise people. Writing and music go hand in hand for me.

Can't you tell I'm not good at introductions :/. Welcome to Living Life Through Music where you will find all kinds of bands, and songs. Just like in Writers Workshop we will all be a family. So "Welcome To The Family- Avenged Sevenfold.