Good News (not like other blogs)

Ok so recently life has been amazing for me! My family is getting along (no my brother still isn't talking to me) but I got a job at IHOP. I am now a server :3 sweet! and I get my licence soon (took forever I know) but know that I have a job I can get it. Also I am getting a car! I am also paying for this car all by my self!. My man and I fixed things again XD.  But this is his last chance! But I haven't been this happy in a long time and I am glad that I am happy again :D

Say

When I have a pen in my hand I let the kink form letters that form beautiful words that make musical sentences. Writing isn't the simple act of writing something down for me its like a ritual I do everyday it's inspirational and magical to me. A pen may nust be a writing utensil for many but for me a pen is the key to a locked door that unlocks a magical world of creativity and feelings. The pen makes the barriers of my current life and wold disappear into oblivion. Behind the pen I am not afraid to say something I am not scared to of getting hurt and most of all I am not the quiet Ashley that many people know I am a creative writer who listens as her muse sings to her everyday. Listen to your muse and "say (what you need to say)"-John Meyer 

Kerosene

Tears glide down my face i always thought that you would never hurt me again i was proven wrong last night. You showed me that you don't care the same for me as I do for you . It's hard talking to you right now because you made it clear that you dont car for me.
I opened up to you to have it shoved in my face you know that i never trust people and the fact that I trustec you meant alot but i guess i give my trust away to easily you only care about her! you don't give a SHIT about me! Are you using me to get to her? To have maybe the smallest link to her? I'm done shedding tears for you! You are not worth my time or tears.. So I'm soaking the past in "Kerosene"- Miranda Lambert/

Pushing Me Away

I know you are not wanting to trust me and i know that I have messed up a few times but nobody is perfect. I know that at times you hate me because I make you feel things. I make it where you can't live life walking around numb. I do everything I do for a reason and that's because I love you I want you to live life happy. So will you just stop "pushing me away" -linken park

I Love You

When I hear your voice it's like the world just stood still
When you say my name my heart skips a beat
When I smile I can't help but grin from ear to ear and feel like I need to be ressessitated
You make me feel amazing
How did I get so lucky?
How did you fall in love with me and not someone else?
How is it that we can care so much for one another
I know there is a possibility that I may get hurt but nothing is going to stop me from jumping head first into the unknown with you
I wanna wake up every morning next to you and fall asleep in your arms while I feel you breathing on me.
I wanna kiss you awake with a huge grin on our faces, and see every scar and smile that you have
I want to feel you kiss me passionately all night. I wanna cuddle and watch movies until the end of time.
I wanna have that first date all over again every night.
I want every date to feel like the first date.
But most of all I just want to be with you , and to help you through everything that life throws at you because "I LOVE YOU"- Avril Lavigne

Love Bites (So Do I)

Love it hurts us in many ways. Some ways for the good and some ways for the bad. Even in a happy relationship there are always things that hurt. Weather it is the wives of soldiers or someone who loves someone so much and the other person doesn't even know that they exist. We all face problems with our love lives and love loves to bite us in the ass. And most of the time it hits us at the worst time possible. But you can also have days where all you feel is absolute bliss you can't help but to smile. Everything seems brighter and happier on those days. You see the world with rose colored glasses on. Which is an amazing feeling. But the thing that gets me going the most is hearing the person that I love tell me they love me every day and that I am their "Honey Bunny" You can never hear to much of that. But for a couples good days to be as good as they are they have to have bumps in the road that make the good times that much better. I know that we have had some rough bumps but we always make it I love you baby! But still "Love Bites (But So Do I)- Halestorm

Great News

Ok for all of my followers this one peice isn't going to be like others. Sorry for that. Well I was interviewed today for the Epic our schools newspaper on my blog. It meant alot to me that someone put my name out there. So thank you for who did it. But I know I haven't blogged much reciently which I feel guilty for but my life has been so hectic. I got my tattoo, it's a treble clef made out of stars... (surprising right?) My relationship has been doing good everyday is different. And like any relationship we have to work on it. But we are willing to work on it. Well that's all that I can think of. Off to get my happy little fingers on writing something.